Here to up date cos my KengLing say if i don update she don wanna link me so bad to me right..sadded! :(
anyway i found out sumthing funny why do ppl alway keep say the past better they will miss dde past year friends and things tt happened in dde past but tt past year they will keep say hate it..wanna faster get pass tt year..hahax abit funny right actually i'm also guilty of this heex!
But this year i have decided to not miss it i wanna make a whole lot of fun out of it..YEAHX`! PLAY PLAY PLAY..hahax..
oh ya today i steal dde squeaky toy from sch hahax den after sch before chinese lesson keep play with it..mdm gao ask me what happened why play with children toy hahax..
aiya sian got nth better to write la..STOP here le.
donno why but this year suddenly dde feeling of hollowness sank so deep in me i can never stop feeling so depress even for a sec..i feel so weak yet i don wanna miss dde past..maybe friendship is jus too important to me..now when ever i look around i feel so amiss..last time even though I never get to be in the same class as them i don feel this way but not seeing them at all anymore is really unbearable, is not i'm not happy or satisfy with all my friends now i really happy and i really feel bless to have them by myside jus tt i really feel so hollow. I start to feel i do not know how to interact will ppl anymore i feel so lifeless.Missing the past really make me weak!=( sadded!
i don't wanna keep revolving my thoughts around merioses and the past but i really can't help the feel of hollowness & weakness, which keep spilting out of me!i truly understand the meaning of 'if i gain one thing i will definitely have to lost one other thing'.it's so painful it's ripping me apart but i can't imagine me not knowing wanzi they all thet are also equally important so frustrated..Maybe is because i'm greedy but FRIENDSHIP really means everything to me, to me it's for life..and to me friendship really is "close" friend not "distance" friend but i understand every1 has their own path, but i can't and not i'm willing to let go anything so dear to me so i will jus quietly keep holding them on in my heart for the rest of my life.......
